Sunday, April 24, 2011

Light still dwells in you

This I know to be true:

even when the darkness seems to swallow you whole -
when you can't smile
you can't get out of bed
and pain grabs your body

light still dwells in you.

you may not see it because you have your eyes screwed shut
fiercely squeezing out everything you fear

but I know it glows inside you.

nothing in the universe can extinguish your light.

fog and night may hide it
but it burns within you.

some day you will open your eyes to a dazzling dawn
you will breathe in as if for the first time
and you will feel as if this world has always been here
waiting for you
to be you.

Heart suncatcher ablaze

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

A nest for the birdie

I've stitched a little nest for the birdie on the banner.

Spring banner - nest

I used dark brown pearl cotton and a variegated embroidery floss, making it look like a hodgepodge of sticks. I didn't have much of a plan starting out;  I'm happy with the results. Sometimes I think I do better if I trust my instincts and dive in.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

No excuses

I almost started this post with a list of excuses. Why I haven't been blogging, why I haven't been working on projects, blah, blah, blah. What's the point in repeating that story? I doubt you care about my excuses, and I don't care about them, either.

Suffice it to say, I have my challenging times, just as everyone else does. What matters: how do I meet those challenges? What do I do with the days I have been given? I laughed a lot while I took a shower this morning. So many conditions and events could have me pinned to the floor, but most of them struck me as totally absurd or ironic. I could only shake my head and laugh as the hot water poured down.

Today I chose to concentrate on the now. I watched the sun shine one minute, and I watched the hail bouncing off the mud the next. I took deep breaths in yoga class. I thought about my cousin who is in the hospital. I wrestled with new software at work. I smiled at my goofy husband and son. I chose to write a blog post.

Update: the spring banner is coming along. I've been stitching whenever I get a chance.

Spring banner bird

Spring banner "Y"

Honestly, if I did not "make stuff," I would be a basket case. Creativity is sanity.

Monday, April 4, 2011


Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to me!

I decided not to grumble about turning 48, but to enjoy the day. I received a lovely bunch of bright daisies from my husband, who dragged himself out of his sickbed to buy them! He's so sweet. Ross gave me a big hug and kiss. Some packages, things I had ordered for myself, arrived in the mail, so that made things festive, too. And it's so nice to get phone calls and emails and Facebook messages - maybe I'm corny, but I love it nonetheless.

Perhaps the best part was hearing that I'd sold "Heart Signals," a piece I'd made last year. I'd placed it in a show in Post Falls, Idaho, at the Jacklin Center, and frankly, I figured I'd be driving there this week to pick it up and hang it up in my office again. I'm glad that my pessimistic side was wrong.

"Heart Signals" (final)